Tuesday, May 5, 2009 @ 5/05/2009 12:32:00 AM
Realized
Realized
Random : Jesse McCartney is so cool in the video of "It's over" :D
I finally realized what I just realized. My heart felt the enthusiasm. I though don't understand why. However my heart really felt the happiness in me. Though I'm now sitting at my desk infront of the computer screen while all my mates had been set off to KB to enjoy their journey by bus. Due to my IC is green and I'm not local here so yeah that's the disadvantage. I'm not qualified to join them to KB trip. Doesn't matter. At first I do mind but what to do. They went there just because of the scholarship thingy. I don't have the rights to complain all that coz I won't get any scholarship anyway.
Doesn't matter, I'm still enthusiastic. I spent my time with Teacher Ling, my Physics teacher and my mate which also have the same case as me, Jason after they all set off their journey to KB. I could concentrate much after they all had gone and I realized I wasn't shy on asking questions that I had doubt. Being in a crowd is my weakness. I cannot speak much in a crowded group due to my shyness in me. That is why my group is like two people only, and they're my best close friends. I don't like to get involve in a large, loud group. It's just doesn't suit my personality. Being in a large group, I've been thinking of disadvantage only that is sometimes you will feel neglected. I dislike being in a large group due to that certain reason.
My concentration in me was building up when I'm in a small group of people like for example just now in the morning. I could concentrate on Physics. I managed to finish up my classwork and homework and I finally realized I had so much in doubts about this topic electromagnetic induction. I had misconcept on some certain theory therefore I need some explaination from my teacher. She gave explaination detailed whereas Jason was just sat there and nodded his head as if he had understand. I, a bimbo still have a little doubt about a question and I forced myself to put myself into this Physics world. Finally I managed to put myself together and understand the concept. I realized I ought to put much effort in this subject of my weakness.
Teacher Ling had motivated me to work hard on this level this year. It's our only year this year and we had to sacrifice our time to study hard and not to spend time infront of TV nor computer games. Even me as a non-local cannot have this benefit on having scholarship. Therefore even if I work hard on studies I cannot get it as well. So you locals out there, please take this opportunity. You are rather lucky :)
