Tuesday, August 11, 2009 @ 8/11/2009 01:29:00 AM
Pain
Pain
I was checking my facebook when surprisingly I saw .. at my facebook home page. A guy-that-don't-want-to-be-named poked me. I mean the notifications that whoever poked me. So Surprised! For all this time that guy had been inactive and I already treated him as not exist in this world already.
At first I was wondering, maybe something wrong with this facebook. Why does he wanna poke me when he told me to forget him? Why does he wanna make my flashback fresh again? And then when I went to his facebook, he was currently active. My heart started to ache and there it goes my tears flowing down. The flashback started again and again.
I saw through his wall, his posts and comments from others. I checked the person that he commented on their wall posts *crap, I feel like a stalker -.-* That made my mind think that he is still exist in this world. His texts to others, the way he texts, are still the same :'( Same old texts. He never changed does he?
I bet he forgets about me. When I see through his pictures I cannot hold back my tears. Heart aching and tears flowing at the same time. I want to forget, but nevertheless my mind won't let me to. It's hard as a rock!
I can see that he's not really close to his past friends already. Well maybe he does change. Changing friends and forgot about the past friends. I bet he's already forgetton about me. I'm sad :(
Ain't I moving on already? I doubt it.
edited;
I cannot imagine it. What if I go to Katok next year? Would I be seeing him again? What if I do? Will I go become emo again? I hate it. I hate that expression really. But I just can't hold it can't I? The feeling? Will it stay the same forever? I don't want that!
Probably my friend was right. Maybe if I get another love I will forget the-guy-that-I-don't-wanna-name slowly, fading away from my life.
I'm just too loyal.
