Thursday, February 5, 2009 @ 2/05/2009 10:28:00 PM
It's been a while
It's been a while
I actually abandoned my Blog since last week coz I was accompanied by my homeworks all day long. It's been a while. I've been busy with homeworks lately. And since the Olevel result 2008 has finally out, I was kind of afraid since then. I kept thinking about it. Wondering I should study hard from now on. 2008 OLevel result was not really satisfying. The highest was just 6A's. Congrats for the one who had achieved their aim and I felt sorry for the ones who had retained. It's not too late to work hard again :)
I'm actually proud of Johnny's result. Although he didn't get any A's, He still makes me proud. At least he pass and managed to get 8 O's. But since then, he kept blaming himself and he's regretting for not studying hard that year. Yesterday I met him at school. He came to school for the teachers to sign the blue form. I could see the disappointed face in him. His face made me feel sad and tears nearly came out from my eyes. I don't wanna cry infront of him. In fact I never did. I don't wanna make him sad. When he told me that MAYBE he would go to Kuching study instead. I kept silence for a while. Holding my tears back. And wondering our relationship, will it last long when we're in a distant? I'm not quite sure. I can't tell.
I miss him so desperately. We haven't even chat properly. I mean since the day he came back, either he's busy or I'm busy. We chat for just a while. Last night I chatted with him for a while then he told me that he's gonna sleep early coz he has to wake up early to do some stuff. So I let him. And after that, I could actually concentrate on doing addmath and Chemistry. In fact, I could just finished my Chemistry for a night without chatting with him. Addmath nearly finished though, coz some questions I need to refer to Muin since I don't know how to do :P And i thought for a while, what if he go to Kuching? I will be able to concentrate more on my studies. But I'll miss him and I can't tell our relationship, will it survive when he's so far away from me?
I cried last night, praying for him not to stay at Kuching to study. I want him to stay here. Maybe go Katok to study. Why do you need to go so far? I can't wait to see him again. I need to see him. I need to talk to him. Well maybe next week.
