Friday, June 26, 2009 @ 6/26/2009 09:26:00 PM
Back again?
Arise again?
Random : Thank goodness my stomachache just lasted for a day. I can go hyper now :P
Yes, it's back. The emotional state inside of me is coming back again. Last night I cried without any reason at all. Its not the sadness of crying but the crying of without any intention at all. The tears of mine doesn't obey my mind control. It just keep flowing and flowing down my cheecks till my lips. I could even taste the salty-ness of my tears every single drop of them. I painted a smile on my face yet the tears keep flowing. When I tend to close my eyes, I saw the vision of you. For a moment or so I felt that as if there was shards of ice keep stabbing and then dragging along my skin. Extremely painful indeed. My heart felt as if someone's been clenching really hard. Ouch, hurt =(
Seeing my friends here and there finally found their partners. No, it's not that I'm desperate. I just envy them, their partners are so much caring indeed. I miss your sweet talk, suddenly. The touch of your hand, really cold. I thought I could be holding your hands keeping them warm everytime. But you had to let go of my hand, as if my hand is no longer useful. I felt useless indeed. I miss the gazing of your eyes. Your eyes are full of confident and hope. That time I wish I could be staring at your eyes without a blink of an eye, scaring that if I blinked you would be vanished. You were everything to me.
And now, you really are vanished in my life, in my world. I still have some missing thought of you in my mind. Its just too stubborn to wipe them off. Goodness me, what is this? =O I'm so EMO! =O
Sigh, I just hope that I could forget him one day. And it's already 3 months! I still mentioned about this -.- Seems like my mind is a Pentium1.
Hoping one day I could find my true love. 
